About a month ago, the Smoking Fetish Kingdom site had a question with regard to ones five favorite smokers on the net. Yes, I choose you within my five. Why?? First, you are incredibly beautiful. Second, you along with cigarettes, smoke cigars. Third, you smoke in a way that isn’t fake, forced or staged. As an avid cigar smoker, I smoke each cigar for all that it is worth – getting as much smoke, taste etc. from each one. As I watch you smoke, you do the same and I so appreciate and love that. Knowing how I smoke and the taste that I want each time, I would love to french kiss you after each time you’ve smoked because I know that taste in your mouth would match exactly what I would be feeling after smoking my own cigars -Jerobaum

I will be online shortly but for now I’m resting as my body tends to rejuvenate better so I can be in top shape. As one of my fans has said to me:

Sandi, Your passionate presence on Ifriends these past several weeks has impacted all of us. It’s as if a dormant volcano has been reborn, and the air we now breathe and live in is laden with the ash of your eruptions, coating our senses, searing our memories. Of course, I hope you will be with us for a long time; so please do anything you need to do to re-charge, recreate and prolong your interest in us mere mortals. A couple fan club sessions a month is pretty standard (and yours are and will be extraordinary) so don’t worry about it. In fact, put your feet up now, have a croissant and a cappuccino, and drink in the poet’s sage advice:

“Moderation Is Not a Negation of Intensity, But Helps Avoid Monotony,” by John Tagliabue

Will you stop for a while, stop trying to pull yourself together for some clear “meaning” – some momentary summary? No one can have poetry or dances, prayers or climaxes all day; the ordinary blankness of little dramatic consciousness is good for the health sometimes. Only Dostoevsky can be Dostoevskian at such long, long tumultuous stretches; look what the intensity did to poor Van Gogh! Linger, lounge, scrounge and be stupid, that doesn’t take much centering of one’s forces. As wise Whitman said “lounge and invite the soul.” Get enough sleep; and not only because (as Cocteau said) “poetry is the literature of sleep.” Be a dumb bell for a few minutes at least; we don’t want Sunday church bells ringing constantly. -RICO

I feel so loved Thanks for your wisdom xox

Last night I was having a little “too much fun” online. I was with one of my favorite members – we have this great connection when we are together – Let’s just say we “click”. Anyways, there we were having fun, drinking, partying and “fucking around”, music blasting, me enjoying every minute of it when suddenly I heard a loud BANG BANG BANG! The walls shook! OMFG, the message was loud and clear “SHUT THE FUCK UP!” How embarassing! This couldn’t have happened at a better time as it was just when I was orgasming and then the BANG which shut me up fast!

I’m not happy in my new place especially because of the neighbors. I don’t want to have to wonder if they can hear me during my shows. Freedom of expression is what I seek. I want to be able to let go and let it all out without having to worry about anyone hearing me. Gosh, how am I suppose to enjoy myself now? I’m so disappointed I’ve even gone to Craigslist searching for a new place. It’s a thought I’m seriously considering. In the meantime, I guess I just have to be more “aware” of my vocals from now on and remind myself that I should shut the fuck up lol. *Sigh*

I never know when I will be online as I tend to “show up” whenever I feel like it. It can be during the day or at night – a few hours here and there. I don’t really like to plan these things as I like to be “spontaneous”.  Like last night for example, I had no idea that I was going to be online until about 15 minutes before I signed on for live shows. I was having a blast as usual until the BANGING ended my “fun” abruptly. What a buzzkiller. I could have gone on all night. Will I be on tonight? I’m not sure, I’d like to but its still too early for me to tell lol. Who knows, maybe I will, maybe I won’t. I’ll be sure to let you know via email.

Last night I came online to test a few things from my new “room” and I think I pretty much have it the way I like it for now. I didn’t expect to stay online for too long when suddenly a whole bunch of my fans were in my room. I was quite busy with other members trying to figure out my sound, all these weird pop ups and new “noises” that I decided to go “hang out”with my fans instead. I just love hanging out with them! They make me feel so sexy and beautiful. I can feel their eagerness and horniness that it overwhelmed me a bit. So I smoked to relax as I always do and put on some of my favorite music. Within a few minutes more fans came in and it was a full house but very respectful. I love and appreciate that. Noone wants to have demands barked at them – it’s hard enough trying to follow the multitude of conversations lol. I had a really good time and loved every minute of it then it was over.

Many hours later…I found myself masturbating again (offline) and thinking about all my fans and how I should have gone back online to share my arousal once more but I didn’t want to move lol.  Yes, I came again and it was so good. I think this is the week where I am at my horniest in the month – I can tell because I can’t stop thinking about sex or touching myself.

So today (Wednesday already!) I will be making a special appearance online FOR FANS ONLY! Yep, whenever I wake up – I will take a shower and have my coffee and smokes, read my emails then come online on and off throughout the day to spend it with MY FANS whom I love dearly. So if you happen to be around and my status button above flashes “LIVE” I should be in a fanclub session which is free for fans of course!

Hi everyone! I’m almost completely moved in and settled. New place, still have to set up my “hosting room” but very excited to get back and meet you all again! Remember: FUN TIMES! Yes! YES! YESSSSSSS! Don’t forget you can check out my website too for up-to-date news about me and my whereabouts! here’s the link: sandi-squirts.net I will come online and say hello in the coming days or so. Then you can help me unpack ! LOL Can’t wait! Muah!