Last night I was having a little “too much fun” online. I was with one of my favorite members – we have this great connection when we are together – Let’s just say we “click”. Anyways, there we were having fun, drinking, partying and “fucking around”, music blasting, me enjoying every minute of it when suddenly I heard a loud BANG BANG BANG! The walls shook! OMFG, the message was loud and clear “SHUT THE FUCK UP!” How embarassing! This couldn’t have happened at a better time as it was just when I was orgasming and then the BANG which shut me up fast!

I’m not happy in my new place especially because of the neighbors. I don’t want to have to wonder if they can hear me during my shows. Freedom of expression is what I seek. I want to be able to let go and let it all out without having to worry about anyone hearing me. Gosh, how am I suppose to enjoy myself now? I’m so disappointed I’ve even gone to Craigslist searching for a new place. It’s a thought I’m seriously considering. In the meantime, I guess I just have to be more “aware” of my vocals from now on and remind myself that I should shut the fuck up lol. *Sigh*

I never know when I will be online as I tend to “show up” whenever I feel like it. It can be during the day or at night – a few hours here and there. I don’t really like to plan these things as I like to be “spontaneous”.  Like last night for example, I had no idea that I was going to be online until about 15 minutes before I signed on for live shows. I was having a blast as usual until the BANGING ended my “fun” abruptly. What a buzzkiller. I could have gone on all night. Will I be on tonight? I’m not sure, I’d like to but its still too early for me to tell lol. Who knows, maybe I will, maybe I won’t. I’ll be sure to let you know via email.