Last night I was having a little “too much fun” online. I was with one of my favorite members – we have this great connection when we are together – Let’s just say we “click”. Anyways, there we were having fun, drinking, partying and “fucking around”, music blasting, me enjoying every minute of it when suddenly I heard a loud BANG BANG BANG! The walls shook! OMFG, the message was loud and clear “SHUT THE FUCK UP!” How embarassing! This couldn’t have happened at a better time as it was just when I was orgasming and then the BANG which shut me up fast!

I’m not happy in my new place especially because of the neighbors. I don’t want to have to wonder if they can hear me during my shows. Freedom of expression is what I seek. I want to be able to let go and let it all out without having to worry about anyone hearing me. Gosh, how am I suppose to enjoy myself now? I’m so disappointed I’ve even gone to Craigslist searching for a new place. It’s a thought I’m seriously considering. In the meantime, I guess I just have to be more “aware” of my vocals from now on and remind myself that I should shut the fuck up lol. *Sigh*

I never know when I will be online as I tend to “show up” whenever I feel like it. It can be during the day or at night – a few hours here and there. I don’t really like to plan these things as I like to be “spontaneous”.  Like last night for example, I had no idea that I was going to be online until about 15 minutes before I signed on for live shows. I was having a blast as usual until the BANGING ended my “fun” abruptly. What a buzzkiller. I could have gone on all night. Will I be on tonight? I’m not sure, I’d like to but its still too early for me to tell lol. Who knows, maybe I will, maybe I won’t. I’ll be sure to let you know via email.

Last night I came online to test a few things from my new “room” and I think I pretty much have it the way I like it for now. I didn’t expect to stay online for too long when suddenly a whole bunch of my fans were in my room. I was quite busy with other members trying to figure out my sound, all these weird pop ups and new “noises” that I decided to go “hang out”with my fans instead. I just love hanging out with them! They make me feel so sexy and beautiful. I can feel their eagerness and horniness that it overwhelmed me a bit. So I smoked to relax as I always do and put on some of my favorite music. Within a few minutes more fans came in and it was a full house but very respectful. I love and appreciate that. Noone wants to have demands barked at them – it’s hard enough trying to follow the multitude of conversations lol. I had a really good time and loved every minute of it then it was over.

Many hours later…I found myself masturbating again (offline) and thinking about all my fans and how I should have gone back online to share my arousal once more but I didn’t want to move lol.  Yes, I came again and it was so good. I think this is the week where I am at my horniest in the month – I can tell because I can’t stop thinking about sex or touching myself.

So today (Wednesday already!) I will be making a special appearance online FOR FANS ONLY! Yep, whenever I wake up – I will take a shower and have my coffee and smokes, read my emails then come online on and off throughout the day to spend it with MY FANS whom I love dearly. So if you happen to be around and my status button above flashes “LIVE” I should be in a fanclub session which is free for fans of course!